Am I even speaking English anymore? Looking back at my recent (and not terribly recent) blog entries, I'm realizing that they have these weird statements and that while I was typing them I must have skipped over a few sentences in my mind so that what ended up being posted just doesn't make sense.

Sorry about that. I think it's been a little like that for me in my verbal communication, too.

Before I moved to VA, I was spending one of my last days in FL with Elise, and she jumped on her computer to check her e-mail right quick, and I laid down on her bed to relax a little while she was doing that. We were still talking though, but then I mostly fell asleep and so I started responding out loud with things that I was half-dreaming, too. So she figured out that I was mostly asleep and stopped talking and I drifted off the rest of the way and of course felt terrible when I woke up, because that was quality time with her I could have had and instead I fell asleep. I sort of related to the disciples when Jesus was praying the garden, but on an obviously much less dramatic level.

So anyway, my posts kinda look like that day with Elise .. like part of my brain is asleep or maybe just elsewhere. Hmm.

If I still really wanted to be a writer, I'd need to get over that, eh?

I think I still do want to be a writer. I think now, while I have financial security and a more certain timeframe for how long that lasts, would be a good time to work on building those skills and also getting some connections. Just imagine, in three and a half years when I'm getting out, I could maybe already have a regular writing job. That would be rad.

Since everyone keeps asking me what I would do if I got out, I should just start saying that to get them to hush up. I mean, I've got three and a half years before I get out, and no matter how much they try to make it sound like I'm not going to be able to find a job on the outside, I seriously only joined to build my resume and have some financial security for a while.

I have plenty of options when I get out, though I do want to be well on the way to them while I've still got a steady paycheck.

So that's that.