C'est La Vie

What a beautiful piece of heartache this has all turned out to be. Lord knows we've learned the hard way all about healthy apathy. And I use these words pretty loosely. There's so much more to life than words..
I really think I'll be ok. They've taken their toll these latter days.
-- Over the Rhine, Latter Days


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Recommended Readings

A Grief Observed

Wishful Thinking
Frederick Buechner

Divine Conspiracy
Dallas Willard (may never finish)

Rich Mullins: An Arrow Pointing to Heaven
James Bryan Smith

Recommended Listening
(from my collection)

The Hymnal, Arkadelphia
Randall Goodgame

Land of the Living
Eric Peters

Laryngitis, Longing
Katy Bowser

Walk [EP], Carried Along, Clear to Venus, Love and Thunder, and live bootlegs
Andrew Peterson

In the Company of Angels
Caedmon's Call

Delusions of Grandeur
Fleming and John

The entire CD catalog
Eddie From Ohio

Bootlegs including Eddie From Ohio, Rich Mullins, David Wilcox, and Andrew Peterson

Things I love
(AKA: Ways to win my heart)
Music, gift certificates, ice cream, music, chocolate, meatballs, music, books, knowledge, music, good movies, music, animals, art supplies, music, cotton candy, fajitas, music, safety, music....

Things I wish I owned and could listen to or read
found at Relevantmagazine.com,
and at pastemusic.com, too

Friday, September 28, 2007

Being out here, I am much more aware of the female minority status ... back in Jax, our staff was at least half female, and most of the offices I worked in had a female majority. But here, I have been in several rooms in which I was the only girl, and even when there are other females, we are vastly outnumbered. Even among our staff, which is more balanced than many, we are the minority to be sure.

What's really worth mentioning for me is how despite the male majority being so much larger of a margin here, there is more of a sense of gentlemanliness and chivalry. I have rarely been allowed to open a door for myself or especially hold it open for others as I have grown quite accostumed to doing. I do pay for all my own food (except at the hail-and-farewell dinner when I first got here, and that's the tradition, that the honorees never pay), but that is due to my own insistance on not letting wrong impressions take hold and all that. The jokes and conversations and all are still very similar to what they were back home, but I think it's easier for the guys to find all-guy time for the courser items, so they seem to enjoy holding back in the presence of a female.

That's all just the on-base stuff, by the way, not out in town.... although I do run into fewer females whose faces you can actually see out in town, or who are actually talking to anyone. But they're still not the minority to any noticible extent if at all.

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Saturday, September 22, 2007

I went and got a manicure yesterday (hide your shock... yes, it was my first real one since Homecoming my junior year of high school, but you knew it was coming) and was chuckling at the names of the polish .... I can't think of what the brand was, but it was very much an Asian brand with English names that sometimes didn't quite translate right...

Two of the cute ones that did make sense were Sweet Cakes (a bright, light pink color) and Shittake Happens (about the color of Shittake mushrooms).

There was another that didn't make sense, but I can't think of it right now...

And my nails are now painted in "Everything's Turnipped Roses".

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Friday, September 21, 2007

After posting about the second stage of time-zone-adjustment, I've been sleeping fine. Guess I just needed to get that out. I now sleep right up to about ten minutes before my alarm is due to go off, which is nice, because if I were a more disciplined person, I could just pretend my original alarm was the snooz alarm and use that extra ten minutes to take in water (since we can't drink in public during Ramadahn) and wake up a little more so I'm not yawning as I walk through the hotel room.

I am not such a disciplined person, but either way, it's really nice sleeping again.

My week of getting up early for a small watch duty is over, which means I get an hour more sleep each night (except PT days) now, if my body can adjust back to that schedule... the thing is it gets so bright here so early, which makes it hard to sleep once the sun starts shining in my windows.

And today, I am FINALLY going to go experience the famous Souk! Yay!!!!

And this weekend, I'll be going out house-hunting again, just in case the one place I've potentially got set up falls through ... plus the one place isn't really in the area I wanted so much, so I'd rather look at other options anyway.

So that's my update, and now I'm off to the Souk with my friend Heather. It's 2am Eastern Standard Time, and I hope you all are sleeping well or about to....

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Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Apparently, jet leg (or adjusting to time-zones, anyway) has more than one stage...

It was a false alarm when I started sleeping through the night and actually feeling rested. This new stage is much more subtle and therefore perhaps much worse. I'm told it will last about another month or so. I wake up two and three times a night, and can't seem to make the temperature right, and it's a massive sleep deprivation kinda thing...

I have been having the STRANGEST dreams. Many of which I can't even attribute to a conversation, tv show clip, or event that happened recently... so they're not just my brain's strange way of processing recent events, they're just straight-up weird.

I also had a minor reaction to my most recent Anthrax shot. Nothing unusual, they said, but it was no fun all the same. However, I am certain it was much better than getting anthrax would've been!

All in all, I'm still getting used to this place, and yet I'm really pretty well used to it in many ways... and it's nice knowing my way around and being able to help others out with directions or tips and tricks...

And we're 5 days through Ramadhan now, and life hasn't changed a great deal for me, which may say a lot about my life before... but our dress code isn't as strict as we were first told it would be, and I didn't really eat out in the daytime much anyway.

I'm coming along in my Arabic lessons, I guess... slowly but surely. It's a very logical language, as far as speaking (I'm not learning writing)... So in that way it's probably easier than English so far. More like learning to speak Japanese... it has few exceptions to many of the rules, and not nearly so many vowel sounds as have we.

It's time to go catch my shuttle.

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This is what a modern area in a desert looks like. That is, in a desert near the water. The bright blue spots are swimming pools and billboards.

That's all.

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Saturday, September 15, 2007

There was an article in today's paper about Iran's newest comments regarding President Bush, the American government, and even American people in general ... they were being encouraged to cheer out "Death to America" and were very angry about what we have been doing in Iraq and Afghanistan.

They said that our main goal there was to create a Middle East revolving around Israel (which they called something like their arch enemy) and they will not stand for such a thing.

It makes me so sad. It makes me so sad every time I hear about civilians being killed, whether by insurgents or our own forces. It makes me so sad that some of the governments here and ours are communicating so poorly (if at all) and that the good relationships we have over here are not spreading right now. I hope they do. But right now, I am sad about that news and other such.

I am sad about Darfur. I am sad about India's recent increase in terrorist attacks. I am sad about the Gaza area. I am sad about London's increased gang violence. I am sad about situations all over the world being so full of hate and pain...

We really messed ourselves up back in Babel, eh? Who figured we needed such a tall tower anyway?

I hope and pray for my niece that we people get better educated and better at communicating, within our own families and our own neighborhoods first and around the world by the time she is grown-up. I am sure it will take more time than that. She's growing up so quickly. Since her parents decided to cut me off from her before I left, so that I didn't even get to see her to say goodbye, I can't even imagine how big she is right now. But I hope that she has a peaceful world in which to experience college. I hope that she does not have to be sad about all of these situations.

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Friday, September 07, 2007

Ok, so for non-photo updates:

I think I know what area I'm going to aim for, so I'll be going to look at that part of town throughout the next week. I'm taking an Arabic class two nights a week now, starting with our first session last week. We went over a couple of the most basic items, many of which we'd been hearing since we got here, like greetings. We also went over some of the vocal sounds essential in Arabic that we don't really have in English or some other Western languages so much, which was really funny ... seeing a bunch of Americans trying to make gutteral rolling noises and almost-hissing noises and a few other things we're not so used to. I've figured out with a couple of them that if I pull my jaw back towards my neck, they get a lot easier. But most of them are hit-and-miss ... maybe with practice it'll become more consistant, but I've noticed that even with the locals I work with, there's still a lot of variation from one moments to the next on whether their vocal cords feel like making that particular noise and all.

I went to the Exchange on base to see if I could pick up some past seasons of Veronica Mars, but it seems they everything but. They even have Flava of Love, as gross as that is *shudder*, but no Mars. So I'll have to order that online next time I'm on a more secure connection.

I did, however, pick up two exciting items there in place of Ms. Mars' show:

A three-move Christopher Guest collection (Waiting for Guffman, Best in Show, and a Mighty Wind) for cheap... I already had Best in Show, but now I have an extra copy to give away ... and I didn't have the other two, and I'm hoping now maybe I can stay awake through A Mighty Wind since I have yet to manage that. I LOVED the clips I heard on NPR before I even knew they were doing clips from a movie ... thought it was a real show until they started talking about having to punch the holes in the records themselves.

I also picked up the six-disc "Personal" Best of Monty Python's Flying Circus collection, which I am so very excited about. I had never managed to pick up the complete collection in the past for two reasons .. it was a big pricey, and it was more than I needed. But with this one (which only cost me $40!), it was much more affordable and also contains all my favorites, with 6 hours (plus extras) of great sketches and some new material, so that I don't have more than I want. I'm a happy camper!

In other news, it turns out they only offer the ten most in-demand CLEPs, so that the two final ones I need aren't even offered here. So I'm going to hopefully take those two as online classes and by the end of this year I'll have my degree. Then I can get started on my BA/BS level courses, and maybe I'll get to walk in May (for my AA ceremony) for the first time since kindergarten.

I'm going shopping out in town tomorrow, so that should be fun, and there are a couple of classes this week apart from the Arabic that I may try to get into (like gold-buying and such). I'm looking forward to living closer to work, though, so that I can stay after duty hours or go in on the weekends for things like the comedy tour they brought through last week that I missed because my hotel doesn't do a shuttle that late ... I could've taken a cab, but I also didn't know if I'd have any company to sit with at the show and I wasn't in the mood to be there by myself. It's fine, though ... I ended up having a nice night in instead.

So, I'm off to enjoy my Friday with doing laundry, lounging by the pool maybe, and perhaps even hitting the brunch since I don't know if they'll be serving one during Ramadan.

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This one is just cute. (This was at the entrance to the Grand Mosque.)

This is one of the windows at the Grand Mosque, and I want to have windows just like this in my house when I grow up. The bubbles near the top are the hand-blown glass pieces (I'm honestly not sure whether they did have lights inside or were just for decoration or what) all over the courtyard. What incredible architecture and design here!

And this is me, in an Abaya, during our tour of the Grand Mosque. The doors all had a design very similar to the windows', and the handles were another beautiful detail. The tour was really great, learning a lot about Islam and specific cultural impacts here.

Ramadan will be starting sometime this upcoming week, and I'm looking forward to seeing how that will change daily life around here. About halfway through at the latest, I should be in my new flat/villa ... I just realized this moment that the whole fasting thing may make it interesting finding movers to get my household goods shipments delivered ... I'm glad that's not anything I have to arrange for myself, but I sure do hope it goes well!! Anyway, apart from my own selfish concerns, I am really glad to be over here experiencing life during this timeframe.

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Ahah! My pictures are working now! So, this is the Arabian Carpet, handmade and of VERY high quality, which is worth roughly ten thousand US dollars. Yes, really. And it's so beautiful. If I had that kinda change sitting around, I would've loved to get it ... but you know, somehow, I must've left it in my other pants...

This picture doesn't even quite do it justice, but it gives a good idea... the blue is SO vivid, so deep, like it was a vast expanse rather than a few layers of silky threads. The details in the design are just gorgeous, and after the lesson we got during the tour about how they're made, it's amazing to think of a woman (or a couple of women) creating this thing in such fine detail, over the period of two to four years depending if it was one or two women.

And these are my sandles after much walking around outside. They used to all be the same shade of brown. The white is the dust and sand here, and there are little holes all over them now from all the wear and tear. These are my favorite sandles ever, so I'm going to have to find someone here who can make me another pair. Or a few. Maybe with a little more padding in the sole.

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Saturday, September 01, 2007

I'm trying to post some new pictures, but the darn page keeps not working. *sigh*.

So in the meantime, a little non-picture-related update:

Still in the hotel. Found this amazing flat last week, but it was already booked up. So I'm still looking, and I think I'm going to cave in and use an agent if I don't find anything soon. I've got another month, but (as you said, Caren) it gets really cabin-fever-y hanging out in the hotel all the time... especially since I didn't wanna keep paying so stinkin' much for the internet. I've been enjoying the pool and the restaurants in the hotel itself, and finally ventured out to the nearby coffee shop today for its free wireless.

They're showing the school-bus season of Veronica Mars and one of the earlier seasons of NCIS (when Kate or whatever was still an agent .. she is so similar to Agent Da'vid that I'm not sure they're even different characters really), so that's great to be catching up on... No House, though, or Gray's.. those four made up the only shows I watched regularly. They show a lot of stuff that surprises me here, and some stuff that makes me embarassed to think that may be why so many have such negative opinions of Americans... because of the smut we produce and market for ourselves. Of course, I sorta felt that way while in the States, but it's become more apparent here.

I have also, interestingly enough, become much more aware of how atypical I am compared to my Stateside peers, because of the smaller concentration here. It's harder to find folks like me, since I can't just walk up to a civilian shop in line with my hobbies and make friends so easily. Don't get me wrong, I'm getting along just fine as far as friends go, but I do miss being able to just walk around town and meet folks.

Anyway.... I'm going to make one more attempt at the pictures thing and then call it a day for update purposes.

Ohh.... and the darn CLEP tests here are paper based, which is not only a less pleasant format, but also will take a lot longer to get onto my transcript, assuming I even pass them.. I'm not so sure about this past one, which is sad.. I just took Humanities and I was really pretty sure it would be fairly easy for me, but since I don't have a results sheet in my hand, I've spent all week thinking about the questions I know I got wrong or completely guessed on. I really prefer the computer based tests. Had I known, I may've just taken a wild swing at them in Jax whether or not I took the time to study.

All that aside, though, it's really good times here, the heat is still unbelievable, but now it's more fun watching the newcomers try to deal with it or thinking about all the water-weight I won't be carrying back to the States after living in a natural sauna for a year..... and the coffee and chocolate are both excellent, which is what really matters, right?

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Hippie: (after hearing Max wants to avoid the draft)You still have options man.
Max: Yeah, jail or Canada and they both suck. I mean I could never come home, so what is it, it's a choice of a 6x4 cell or an endless wasteland of frozen tundra.
Hippie: Montreal is cool.
Max:Man, they speak French there.
Groupie: So learn French. Learn French or die.
-- Across the Universe

"So how do i do normal
The smile i fake the permanent way
Cue cards and fix it kits
Can't you tell - I'm not myself
-- Frou Frou, Hear Me Out

"It's been known for a train to jump its track. It's ok, so you'll know, most times they come back. It's ok to lose your life, when you finally see your birth. It's ok to say, "I love you," and figure sometimes it's gonna hurt.
Don't forget to bring kindness, don't forget to say thanks. Don't forgot to spend your love, no it will break the bank. Don't forget to bring some empathy, for the saints and the sinners. Don't forget to bring encouragement. Yeah, we're all just beginners."
-- Bill Mallonee, Bank

"As a comedian, you have to start the show strong and you have end the show strong. Those are the two key elements. You can't be like pancakes, all exciting at first, but then by the end you're sick of 'em!"
-- (The late) Mitch Hedburg

"Hey, this is weird! I ordered one frozen yogurt and they gave me two. You don't happen to like frozen yogurt, do you?" "I love it!" "You're kidding! What a crazy random happenstance!"
-- Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog

"Only one more trip," said a gallant seaman,
As he kissed his weeping wife,
Only one more bag of the golden treasure
And 'twill last us all through life.
Then I'll spend my days in my cosy cottage
And enjoy the rest I've earned;
But alas! poor man! For he sail'd commander
Of the ship that never returned.
Did she never return? She never returned,
Her fate, it is yet unlearned,
Though for years and years there were fond ones watching
Yet the ship she never returned.
--The Ship that Never Returned, Henry Clay Work

"It was Flannery O'Connor who said that 'grace must wound before it heals.' Her words help me to separate what is most true about life from the things we want to be true. We want life to be painless. True grace is a hard sell because in order for the human heart to understand forgiveness and love, it must first experience darkness and isolation. A life lived under the rule of grace is a life of need which allows us to receive an appreciate the gift of the giver of grace. This is why we will always have the poor with us; this is why God will not allow us to ignore injustice; this is why we are called to a life we cannot handle alone, which can and will break us in the effort to live it -- because grace must wound before it heals."
-- Justin McRoberts

Regarding 2007:
"the year has gone quick, but most of the days haven't"

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind ?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days o' auld lang syne

For auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

And surely ye’ll be your pint-stoup !
And surely I’ll be mine !
And we’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

We twa hae run about the braes,
and pou’d the gowans fine ;
But we’ve wander’d mony a weary fit,
sin’ auld lang syne.

We twa hae paidl’d in the burn,
frae morning sun till dine ;
But seas between us braid hae roar’d
sin’ auld lang syne.

And there’s a hand, my trusty fiere !
And gies a hand o’ thine!
And we’ll tak a right gude-willie-waught,
for auld lang syne.
--Robert Burns, "Auld Lang Syne"

I thought Christmas Day would never come. But it's here at last, so Mom and Dad, the waiting's finally done. And you gotta get up, you gotta get up, you gotta get up, it's Christmas morning.

Did my sister get a baby doll? Did my brother get his bike? Did I get that red wagon, the kind that makes you fly? Oh, I hope there'll be peace on Earth, and I know there's goodwill towards men, on account o' that baby born in Bethlehem.
--Rich Mullins, You Gotta Get Up (Christmas Song)

O little town of Bethlehem,
How still we see thee lie,
Above thy deep and dreamless sleep
The silent stars go by;
Yet in thy dark streets shineth
The everlasting light
The hopes and fears of all the years
Are met in thee tonight.

O Holy Child of Bethlehem,
Descend to us we pray,
Cast out our sin, and enter in,
Be born in us today.
We hear the Christmas angels,
The great glad tidings tell,
O come to us, abide with us,
Our Lord Emmanuel.
--L.H.Redner, "O Little Town of Bethlehem"

Walk humbly, son
Walk humbly, now
And cherish every step
For a life well spent
On this earth we're lent
Will be marked by the void you have left

May you conquer (not curse) challenges
May you hold back the dark like a dam
May you lead your life with lion's roar
May you leave it like a lamb

Don't await rewards for your good deeds
A reward won't make them good
Don't await judgment of any foes
They'll receive just what they should

When you find the axis of this world
Don't tread too far inside
Run away as far as you think you can
Be well and enjoy the ride

Walk humbly, son
And store your pride
When you need strength later on
For your life's work will be judged if earth
Is saddened when you have gone

Walk humbly, son
Walk humbly, how
And forget not where you are from
May you go further than those before
And provide for those to come

Will you walk humbly, Son?
--Eddie From Ohio, Walk Humbly, Son

Strings of lights above the bed
Curtains drawn and a glass of red
All I ever get for Christmas is blue

Saxaphone on the radio
Recorded 40 years ago
All I ever get for Christmas is blue

When you play my song
Play it slowly
play it like I'm sad and lonely....

Weatherman says it's miserable
But the snow is so beautiful
All I ever get for Christmas is blue

It would take a miracle
To get me out to a shopping mall
All I really want for Christmas is you
--Over the Rhine, from Snow Angels

"In a little while I'll feel better
Gonna travel around the world
Gonna see it all

Gonna go to Paris, maybe Rome
But I'll feel better miles away from home,
Gotta figure some things out

So sell all my things, I'm not coming home
There's nothing there to keep me there
Just heartache and panic and worries and things that'll bring me down
My head feels much clearer being here

In a little while I'll feel better
Gonna spill my heart to every stranger in every town
I'll visit castles in Ireland, have some fella play the violin and play a song for me

So sell all my things, I'm not coming home
There's nothing there to keep me there
Just heartache and panic and worries and things that'll bring me down
My head feels much clearer being here
--Rosie Thomas, Sell All My Things, from Only With Laughter Can You Win

"Please tell me once again that You love me. That You love me. Please tell me once again that I matter to You and You really care. Please tell me once again that You're with me, forever. It's not that I could ever doubt you, I just love the way it sounds. I just love the way it sounds."
--This Train, I think it's from a song on Emperor's New Band.

"Every once in a while, a bannerzen posts."
--Me, during the 2002 Boredeys at Cornerstone Festival

"7:30. What kind of people have to be at work at 7:30?"
--Mr. Holland's Opus

have you seen my love
is he far away
have you seen the one for me
whose face lights up my day
i won't let one boy steal a kiss
or call me his instead i'll wait
for his voice to call out to mine
and carry these daydreams away
have you seen my love
is he far away
have you seen the one for me
who won't let me get away
please tell him that i'm
waiting for him praying for him
night and day for now i'll be a
lonely girl just longing for his sweet embrace
--Rosie Thomas, Have You Seen My Love, from When We Were Small

Traveling is significant because it takes so much effort. Either you're going to some place you love, or you're leaving some place you love. Usually it's both.
--Friend of a friend of a friend

I think I have Bond's ability to get into trouble but not his ability to get out of it. Someday I'll be in some foreign country with 5 thugs with automatic rifles pointed at me, and I'll just.... fart
--Peter, my twin brother, while we were talking about bicycle accidents.

"You had no alternative .. We must work in the world. The world is thus." --- "No .. Thus have we made the world."
-- The Mission (a movie)

The summer ends and we wonder where we are And there you go, my friends, with your boxes in your car And you both look so young And last night was hard, you said You packed up every room And then you cried and went to bed But today you closed the door and said "We have to get a move on. It's just that time of year when we push ourselves ahead, We push ourselves ahead."
And it was cloudy in the morning And it rained as you drove away And the same things looked different It's the end of the summer It's the end of the summer, When you move to another place
--Dar Williams, End of the Summer

Looking out the bedroom at this snowy TV.. ever since commencement, no one's asking 'bout me. But I bet before the night falls, I could catch the late bus.. take small provisions and this Beethoven bust. I could find work in the outskirts of the city, eat some fish on the way.. befriend an old dog for a roadside pal, find a nice couch to stay -- a pull-out sofa, if you please!"
--Eddie From Ohio, Fifth of July.

Ooh! Get me away from here I'm dying
Play me a song to set me free
Nobody writes them like they used to
So it may as well be me
Here on my own now after hours
Here on my own now on a bus
Think of it this way
You could either be successful or be us --belle and sebastian, Get Me Away From Here, I'm Dying

"The trouble with folks like Brownie is they hold their life in like a bakebean fart at a Baptist cookout and only let it slip out sideways a little at a time when they think there's nobody noticing. Now that's the last thing on earth the Almighty intended. He intended all the life a man's got inside him, he should live it out just as free and strong and natural as a bird."
--Leo Bebb in Frederick Buechner's "Treasure Hunt"

"Life is a phantasmagoria .. It is a pell-mell of confused and tumultuous scenes. We try in vain to find a purpose - to bring an order, a unity to life. I suppose that is the appeal of art. Art is the blending of the real and the unreal, the conquering of nature. It is real enough for it to reflect life, but has the unity that life lacks."
--D., in a recent email.

"in time memories fade.
senses numb.
one forgets how it feels to have loved completely."
--Pedro the Lion, The Longest Winter

I've always had this feeling about Patty that she's complex and intriguing...I like Patty alot. She's got a good heart and tells terrible squirrel jokes.
--Julie, from her blog on 4/8, after a large group of friends from all over gathered at my house for the weekend.

"Try to remember that world-weariness isn't necessarily a bad thing. In the book of Mark, I think its Mark, Jesus looks at a blind man and sighs. Jesus sighed before even telling the man he would be healed. He sighed, and I'm not sure that there's a much more human expression of frustration than this. Faced with the horrid picture of a cursed earth and looking into the white eyes of a man blind from the day he was born, He sighed. The Creator of the universe in human form was sad "of the evils of this world," the world He created. Your Creator sighed for you in the same way before He healed you and made you His."
-- Jesse, in response to my Weltschmerz blog entry

"After the last tear falls
After the last secret's told
After the last bullet tears through flesh and bone
After the last child starves
And the last girl walks the boulevard
After the last year that's just too hard
There is love

-- Andrew Peterson, After the Last Tear Falls

"when you most need people, you don't need perfection - just to know someone gives a damn"
--Jamie, during a recent IM conversation

How will you answer when, years from now, your child asks you: 'Mom or Dad, what did you do to combat the evil of squirrel hazing?'"
--From Dave Barry's Blog

"My brother's always [telling me], 'You should be more mysterious--boys like that.' But I'm not good at that. It would just make me more uncomfortable."
--Rosie Thomas, in an interview with Kathleen Wilson

"Loners want to kill you, but not for any particular reason, and they'd probably like you if they weren't being guided by the violent voices in their head."
--The non-box result from a random quiz I took today. (No, I frankly can't recommend this quiz site, but if you're really bored and you're not seeking to remain pure, go right ahead..)

"No one wants to oil a snake these days!"
-- Emmett Otter, Emmett Otter's Jug Band Christmas (Found under the Specials section of the TV section of the Henson website.)

Jamie: "I am one of the greatest criminal masterminds in the world."
Her mom: "We're all safe."

-- Jamie Bevill and her mother during Christmas-Decorating dinner, December 20, 2002

"and if i were a jetson
i'd throw out all my shoes
i'd set up cans for friends
to dump their shoes senseless shoes
a pioneer of callouses
lordy-be and bless my soul
i'd be a barefoot spaceman
the first you'd ever know"
-- Eddie From Ohio, If I were a Flinstone

"The best way to have God's will for your life is to have no will of your own!"
-- Charlene Potterbaum, Thanks Lord, I Needed That!

"Generations circle and each one atones. The sins of the father are seperate from my own. In Pilgrim's Progress, it's forgiveness that makes whole, and as time levels and consoles, I place the daisies in your bowl."
--Jan Krist, Daisies in Your Bowl

"For a moment he just stared at her. Then, with an urf-urf-urf of laughter, he turned back to the controls."
"They made good time, despite the lingering tenderness of Mara's ankle and the distractions inherent in a faceful of itch."
-- Timothy Zahn, Star Wars: Heir to the Empire

"It's on the internet.. so, then, it must be true."
-- Five Iron Frenzy, The Untimely Death of Brad

"Be at least as interested in what people can become as you are in what they have been."
-- Steve Griffin

Blessed be the rock stars!"
--Justin Dillon Stevens

Get up for the shower.. wash and scrub and scour every part as if a cleaner man could better bear the shame..
--The Waiting, Look At Me

"She was eating gnarly amounts of calcium."
--Samuel Hernandez

Homeless man to girl trying to give him money: "No, thanks, ma'am. I never work on Sundays."
-- Amilie, the movie.

"Wow! I never thought I'd need a radar-guided spatula!"
-- Larryboy, Larryboy and the Angry Eyebrows

"Isn't it great that I articulate? Isn't it grand that you can understand? ... I can talk, I can talk, I can talk!"
-- Wilbur, Charlotte's Web (the movie)

I believe that people laugh at coincidence as a way of relegating it to the realm of the absurd and of therefore not having to take seriously the possibility that there is a lot more going on in our lives than we either know or care to know... I suspect that part of it, anyway, is that every once and so often we hear a whisper from the wings that goes something like this: "You've turned up in the right place at the right time. You're doing fine. Don't ever think that you've been forgotten.
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When we close our eyes to the deep needs of other people whether they live on the streets or under our own roof -- and when we close our eyes to our own deep need to reach out to them -- we can never be fully at home anywhere.
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Maybe at the heart of all our travelling is the dream of someday, somehow, getting Home.
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The place God calls you to is the place where your deep gladness and the world's deep hunger meet. -- Frederick Buechner, Wishful Thinking: A Seeker's ABC

When I lay these questions before God I get no answer. But a rather special sort of "No answer." It is not the locked door. It is more like a silent, certainly not uncompassionate, gaze. As though He shook His head not in refusal but waiving the question. Like, "Peace, child; you don't understand."
-- C.S. Lewis, A Grief Observed

CCM: You've spoken a lot more about crying than I ever thought you would.
JK: Oh, I've cried a lot. Truthfully, I've cried a lot more this past year than I've probably cried in five years.
CCM: Why?
JK: It's fun to feel.
-- An Interview with Jennifer Knapp in the January Issue of CCM Magazine

"Youth is not a period of time. It is a state of mind, a result of the will, a quality of the imagination, a victory of courage over timidity, of the taste for adventure over the love of comfort. A man doesn't grow old because he has lived a certain number of years. A man grows old when he deserts his ideal. The years may wrinkle his skin, but deserting his ideal wrinkles his soul. Preoccuptaions, fears, doubts, and despair are the enemies which slowly bow us toward earth and turn us into dust before death. You will remain young as long as you are open to what is beautiful, good, and great; receptive to the messages of other men and women, of nature and of God. If one day you should become bitter, pessimistic, and gnawed by despair, may God have mercy on your old man's soul."
-- General Douglas MacArthur

""Don't go matchmaking for me, Ilse," said Emily wit a faint smile... "I feel in my bones that I shall achieve old-maidenhood, which is an entirely different thing from having old-maidenhood thrust upon you."
-- Emily, from the Emily books by L. M. Montgomery

"I wish Aunt Elizabeth would let me go to Shrewsbury, but I fear she never will. She feels she can't trust me out of her sight because my mother eloped. But she need not be afraid I will ever elope. I have made up my mind that I will never marry. I shall be wedded to my art"
-- Emily, from the Emily books by L. M. Montgomery

"Tomorrow seems like a long ways away. But it will come, just like any other day... Deep inside, where the wounded creatures hide, I am afraid. Maybe I got lost somewhere along the way somehow. Please rescue me... Yea, though I walk through the valley of the dark shadow of death, I will fear no evil. For you are with me... Though I fear, though I am afraid, You are with me. Though I'm angry, tired, broken down and confused, You are with me. Though I sin like I've never sinned before, lose myself right out an open door, You are with me."
-- Waterdeep, You Are With Me

"The invisible people agreed about everything. Indeed most of their remarks were the sort it would not be easy to disagree with: "What I always say is, when a chap's hungry, he likes some victuals," or "Getting dark now; always does at night," or even "Ah, you've come over the water. Powerful wet stuff, ain't it?"" -- C. S. Lewis, The Voyage of the Dawn Treader

"When People object... that if Jesus was God as well as Man, then He had an unfair advantage which deprives Him for them of all value, it seems to me as if a man struggling in the water should refuse a rope thrown to him by another who had one foot on the bank, saying, "Oh but you had an unfair advantage." It is because of His advantage that He can help."
-- C. S. Lewis

"But, you know, as a Christian, one of the big questions you always ask yourself is, "So we believe in Jesus, we believe in the teachings of the church, but what does that look like when it's lived out?" Because surely, one of the things that Jesus said that I think we often overlook is, "The person who hears my words and does them is like the wise man who built his house on the rock." He didn't say "the person who hears my words and thinks about 'em" or "whoever hears my words and agrees with it." But he said, "Whoever hears it and does it."
-- Rich Mullins, during a radio interview, as quoted in An Arrow Pointing to Heaven

"find that which gives you breath and grants you more to give
because life ends not in death but with what dies inside while we live"
--Christopher Williams, Breathe

"I have packed all my belongings. I don't belong here anymore. This pair of sandles, one pack to carry, this old guitar and this tattered old Bible. And I know I won't be afraid. 'cause I know, I know Home is where You are."
--Dog Named David, Heavenly Rain

"Open up your weepy eyes, everyone is dancing. Angels peer through sweet disguise, through a fire of cleansing.
--My Brother's Mother, Finest Hour

"Long hair, no hair; Everybody, everywhere: Breathe Deep, breathe deep the Breath of God!"
-- Lost Dogs, Breathe Deep

"You may be bruised and torn and broken, but you're Mine!"
-- Asiam, Relentless Love

"I don't deserve to speak, and they don't deserve to hear it. It's makin' me believe that it's not about me."
-- Justin McRoberts, The Story Stands Alone

"Kickin' against these goads sure did cut up my feet. Didn't your hands get bloody as you washed them clean?"
-- Caedmon's Call, Here I am Again

"They say God blessed us with plenty. I say you?re blessed with poverty. ?Cause you never stop to wonder whether earth is just a little better than the Land of the Free"
-- Andrew Peterson, Land of the Free

"Computers will know everything in the 21st century. They'll be like me in the 20th century."
-- Crabby Road