Meanwhile, there is no place on my eval to check "Doing all of this for the glory of God."

So in the midsts of bragging about all of my accomplishments and convincing everyone who reads my eval that I am worthy of advancement and even perhaps of being picked up for commissioning (since this will be the only eval in my application packet), I can't really throw in "but I didn't do all this to make myself look good. I did it to bring glory to God and to enrich the lives of others whenever I can and unfortunately ended up not always enriching their lives in the process, but that's my desire anyway." I can't really say "refrained from at least 45 very 'red light' comments and maybe 238 potentially yellow light ones for the glory of God." And were I to have a comment in there something along the line of "went out of my way to help other people in order to help them, not give myself warm fuzzies or make myself look better or earn good karma", that would be somewhat self-defeating in a sense.

It is awkward for me to have to account for all of the good and wonderful things I have done, completely overlook all of the not so wonderful things, and not even be able to give credit where credit is do.

May God get the glory among those who know me or know of me, at the very least. May it be apparent to all of them that my goal is to glorify Him and not myself. May my goal genuinely always BE to glorify God and not myself.