Work is the same since I got back, of course.. lots of politics. I'm still being told not to make my decision about career or not based on my first command, but the way I figure it, everyone from here is from other commands, so they can't really be ALL that different, can they?

I've been told I'd be better off switching to RegNav (regular Navy, those who don't work with the Reserve Component) but because of the sources, I'm not sure I'll pursue that one -- it seems to me that going RegNav may just take my political frustration and move it into a more dangerous area. Not that I joined the Navy to sit on my duff in the States and never be in danger ... that's what civilian administrative jobs are for. But if I were to go somewhere more dangerous and not increase my beliefs in and support of the current mission .. well, I can't say that. I do believe that there is a basis for this war, despite the media reports. I do believe that we have to be there, putting ourselves in danger -- and the very extreme measures that our attackers go through to destroy those attempts just confirms it. I am saddened by the deaths and injuries, yes. The same way that I am saddened by drug addiction or poverty or all of the other unfortunate circumstances of this world. It's a Weltchmertz sadness, though, not a feeling of non-necessity.

So I don't think that if I were in more danger I would feel like it was for no reason.. However, if I were in more danger and STILL not allowed to think for myself..

I will most likely not ever really be able to talk about what's REALLY on my mind about work here, being a public sight and all. I'm certain that everyone of that concern has better things to do with their time than do an internet search for my name and all, and at the same time I've seen enough of the Politics and such that I cannot stick my neck out that far. But the web has been woven with even more tangles, I will say that much.