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What a beautiful piece of heartache this has all turned out to be. Lord knows we've learned the hard way all about healthy apathy. And I use these words pretty loosely. There's so much more to life than words..
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Friday, April 07, 2006
I arrived safely in DC on Tuesday, and Barbara picked me up from the airport with my suitcase that's heavier than me (I'm not even sure how.. there really wasn't THAT much in it!) and my laptop case (yay, I have a laptop!)...I came to Barbara and Bernard's house where we all happily reunited and where I gladly found that their crotchety old dog, Barley, still remembers me well (it's been about two years since I've been here) and their younger puppy does not remember me at all. Mike (from Lynchburg) eventually made his way here on his Yural Patrol, on/in which we went to see Josh Rouse perform at the Birchmere. Great concert, very enjoyable album. I can't think right off the top of my head who opened, but they were really good, too, and I picked up their EP (only thing they had) and will post again when I've got that in hand. Barbara and Bernard have about a billion guest rooms in their magnificant home in the woods, so Mike crashed on the main floor and then got to play with their 300-year-old Dutch Clock the next day, which was exciting for him since he likes working with clocks. Barbara and Bernard also keep hours much more similar to what I kept when I could as a civilian -- that is, when whatever employment or scholarly pursuits I had at the time did not interfere with my preferred schedule. Although I yawn a lot and nap a lot, I have otherwise mostly fallen into that schedule (pretty immediately) because this house will do that to ya. Being here, I think, is the first time in a very, very long time that I haven't woken up before 8 (at least to realize I'm not working and roll back over). I slept in until 9:20 this morning (when I woke up to work out) and I think it was more like 9:45 yesterday. I will sleep in until someone wakes me tomorrow, which I'm very much looking forward to. Of course, I usually don't stay up quite this late (even on bar-closing nights) and I usually don't eat quite so heartily (we've had steak and potatoes twice since I got here)... I went to lunch at the Pentagon City Mall today with a Naval associate I met through some fun-interesting circumstances, and then got a little driving tour of the Navy Annex, Pentagon outside, Tidal Basin, Arlington National Cemetery, and some other items-of-interest which can be seen from local roads and highways. Just a short drive-through, but it was a good start on hopefully seeing the sights for reals later on this visit. When I got back from that, I took Bran for a walk and had the most peaceful and wonderful day in the woods and on *gasp* HILLS. We don't really have those in FL, though Jacksonville is far more textured than south Florida. It's been nice being up in the hills again, though -- I keep accidentally calling them mountains. I'm not sure if that's because compared to the flatlands of Jax (where elevation is found mostly on bridges), these seem like mountains -- or because to me, Virginia is mountainous country and I am in Virginia and so these must be mountains.. probably a bit of both. Bran and I played and ran on the hill through all the leaves and trees out in the woods, and suddenly I realized that I'd lost the path entirely and wasn't quite certain of where I was. It was maybe 3pm and still very plenty bright outside, and I had my cell phone, and I was still very near to civilization.. so I wasn't concerned at all. It was a great day to meander through those woods with an adorable cocker-poo puppy and enjoy nature and solitude all at once. Eventually, though, Bran abandoned me and made his way back home somehow -- at which point they became concerned about why he had returned home without me, and called me, and knew exactly where I was when I described it, and came out and found me within a few minutes. I wasn't far, just lost. Anyway, then I took a nap and we had steak and potatoes and watched my bootcamp graduation DVD (Thanks Beth and Josh, again!) and the Over the Rhine DVD (and again!) and sorted out some of the CDs that Barbara and Bernard, as people-of-influence-and-even-some-designated/professional-responsibility within the local music scene here, have been given. They gave me one stack to listen to to see if they should give them a listen and another to sort into keep and trash piles for myself. Tomorrow should be mostly more relaxing and then Beth Patterson and Ron arrive in the evening. It will probably be either tomorrow or Saturday that I go and view the Cherry Blossom Festival (if I make it out there) and the other sights from the drive-by ... then on Sunday I've got a church invite in the morning and Beth's concert at the Olde Brogue, I guess all day. Jeff might come up and see me from Lynchburg, and I'm hoping that Lindsay and Andy and perhaps also Ash can .. I'm waiting to hear from Caren about if she'll be able to catch me at all, and I'm also wondering about some other folks ... I didn't make much effort to call any of my Burg friends and loved ones except for Mike, Lindsay, and Ash about this trip --- anyone else, I'd love to see you if you're going to be in the area, and I may make it to the Burg in August timeframe? There are local DC folks I'd like to see as well and a couple of other events or places that are tentatively on my wish-list. Mostly, though, this is about relaxing -- and beating the burnout. Already I think that both of those are significantly accomplished, though there's always room for more.
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True grace is a hard sell because in order for the human heart to understand forgiveness and love, it must first experience darkness and isolation. A life lived under the rule of grace is a life of need which allows us to receive an appreciate the gift of the giver of grace. This is why we will always have the poor with us; this is why God will not allow us to ignore injustice; this is why we are called to a life we cannot handle alone, which can and will break us in the effort to live it -- because grace must wound before it heals." Regarding 2007: Should auld acquaintance be forgot, I thought Christmas Day would never come. But it's here at last, so Mom and Dad, the waiting's finally done. And you gotta get up, you gotta get up, you gotta get up, it's Christmas morning. O little town of Bethlehem, Walk humbly, son Strings of lights above the bed "In a little while I'll feel better "Please tell me once again that You love me. That You love me. Please tell me once again that I matter to You and You really care. Please tell me once again that You're with me, forever. It's not that I could ever doubt you, I just love the way it sounds. I just love the way it sounds." "Every once in a while, a bannerzen posts." "7:30. What kind of people have to be at work at 7:30?" have you seen my love Traveling is significant because it takes so much effort. Either you're going to some place you love, or you're leaving some place you love. Usually it's both. I think I have Bond's ability to get into trouble but not his ability to get out of it. Someday I'll be in some foreign country with 5 thugs with automatic rifles pointed at me, and I'll just.... fart "You had no alternative .. We must work in the world. The world is thus." --- "No .. Thus have we made the world." The summer ends and we wonder where we are And there you go, my friends, with your boxes in your car And you both look so young And last night was hard, you said You packed up every room And then you cried and went to bed But today you closed the door and said "We have to get a move on. It's just that time of year when we push ourselves ahead, We push ourselves ahead." Looking out the bedroom at this snowy TV.. ever since commencement, no one's asking 'bout me. But I bet before the night falls, I could catch the late bus.. take small provisions and this Beethoven bust. I could find work in the outskirts of the city, eat some fish on the way.. befriend an old dog for a roadside pal, find a nice couch to stay -- a pull-out sofa, if you please!" Ooh! Get me away from here I'm dying "The trouble with folks like Brownie is they hold their life in like a bakebean fart at a Baptist cookout and only let it slip out sideways a little at a time when they think there's nobody noticing. Now that's the last thing on earth the Almighty intended. He intended all the life a man's got inside him, he should live it out just as free and strong and natural as a bird." "Life is a phantasmagoria .. It is a pell-mell of confused and tumultuous scenes. We try in vain to find a purpose - to bring an order, a unity to life. I suppose that is the appeal of art. Art is the blending of the real and the unreal, the conquering of nature. It is real enough for it to reflect life, but has the unity that life lacks." "in time memories fade. I've always had this feeling about Patty that she's complex and intriguing...I like Patty alot. She's got a good heart and tells terrible squirrel jokes. "Try to remember that world-weariness isn't necessarily a bad thing. In the book of Mark, I think its Mark, Jesus looks at a blind man and sighs. Jesus sighed before even telling the man he would be healed. He sighed, and I'm not sure that there's a much more human expression of frustration than this. Faced with the horrid picture of a cursed earth and looking into the white eyes of a man blind from the day he was born, He sighed. The Creator of the universe in human form was sad "of the evils of this world," the world He created. Your Creator sighed for you in the same way before He healed you and made you His." After the last secret's told After the last bullet tears through flesh and bone After the last child starves And the last girl walks the boulevard After the last year that's just too hard There is love -- Andrew Peterson, After the Last Tear Falls "when you most need people, you don't need perfection - just to know someone gives a damn" "A CALL TO ACTION: "My brother's always [telling me], 'You should be more mysterious--boys like that.' But I'm not good at that. It would just make me more uncomfortable." "Loners want to kill you, but not for any particular reason, and they'd probably like you if they weren't being guided by the violent voices in their head." "No one wants to oil a snake these days!"
-- Her mom: "We're all safe." -- Jamie Bevill and her mother during Christmas-Decorating dinner, December 20, 2002 i'd throw out all my shoes i'd set up cans for friends to dump their shoes senseless shoes a pioneer of callouses lordy-be and bless my soul i'd be a barefoot spaceman the first you'd ever know" "The best way to have God's will for your life is to have no will of your own!" "Generations circle and each one atones. The sins of the father are seperate from my own. In Pilgrim's Progress, it's forgiveness that makes whole, and as time levels and consoles, I place the daisies in your bowl." "For a moment he just stared at her. Then, with an urf-urf-urf of laughter, he turned back to the controls." "It's on the internet.. so, then, it must be true." "Be at least as interested in what people can become as you are in what they have been." Blessed be the rock stars!" Get up for the shower.. wash and scrub and scour every part as if a cleaner man could better bear the shame.. "She was eating gnarly amounts of calcium." Homeless man to girl trying to give him money: "No, thanks, ma'am. I never work on Sundays." "Wow! I never thought I'd need a radar-guided spatula!" "Isn't it great that I articulate? Isn't it grand that you can understand? ... I can talk, I can talk, I can talk!" I believe that people laugh at coincidence as a way of relegating it to the realm of the absurd and of therefore not having to take seriously the possibility that there is a lot more going on in our lives than we either know or care to know... I suspect that part of it, anyway, is that every once and so often we hear a whisper from the wings that goes something like this: "You've turned up in the right place at the right time. You're doing fine. Don't ever think that you've been forgotten. When I lay these questions before God I get no answer. But a rather special sort of "No answer." It is not the locked door. It is more like a silent, certainly not uncompassionate, gaze. As though He shook His head not in refusal but waiving the question. Like, "Peace, child; you don't understand." CCM: You've spoken a lot more about crying than I ever thought you would. "Youth is not a period of time. It is a state of mind, a result of the will, a quality of the imagination, a victory of courage over timidity, of the taste for adventure over the love of comfort. A man doesn't grow old because he has lived a certain number of years. A man grows old when he deserts his ideal. The years may wrinkle his skin, but deserting his ideal wrinkles his soul. Preoccuptaions, fears, doubts, and despair are the enemies which slowly bow us toward earth and turn us into dust before death. You will remain young as long as you are open to what is beautiful, good, and great; receptive to the messages of other men and women, of nature and of God. If one day you should become bitter, pessimistic, and gnawed by despair, may God have mercy on your old man's soul." ""Don't go matchmaking for me, Ilse," said Emily wit a faint smile... "I feel in my bones that I shall achieve old-maidenhood, which is an entirely different thing from having old-maidenhood thrust upon you." "I wish Aunt Elizabeth would let me go to Shrewsbury, but I fear she never will. She feels she can't trust me out of her sight because my mother eloped. But she need not be afraid I will ever elope. I have made up my mind that I will never marry. I shall be wedded to my art" "Tomorrow seems like a long ways away. But it will come, just like any other day... Deep inside, where the wounded creatures hide, I am afraid. Maybe I got lost somewhere along the way somehow. Please rescue me... Yea, though I walk through the valley of the dark shadow of death, I will fear no evil. For you are with me... Though I fear, though I am afraid, You are with me. Though I'm angry, tired, broken down and confused, You are with me. Though I sin like I've never sinned before, lose myself right out an open door, You are with me." "The invisible people agreed about everything. Indeed most of their remarks were the sort it would not be easy to disagree with: "What I always say is, when a chap's hungry, he likes some victuals," or "Getting dark now; always does at night," or even "Ah, you've come over the water. Powerful wet stuff, ain't it?"" -- C. S. Lewis, The Voyage of the Dawn Treader "When People object... that if Jesus was God as well as Man, then He had an unfair advantage which deprives Him for them of all value, it seems to me as if a man struggling in the water should refuse a rope thrown to him by another who had one foot on the bank, saying, "Oh but you had an unfair advantage." It is because of His advantage that He can help." "But, you know, as a Christian, one of the big questions you always ask yourself is, "So we believe in Jesus, we believe in the teachings of the church, but what does that look like when it's lived out?" Because surely, one of the things that Jesus said that I think we often overlook is, "The person who hears my words and does them is like the wise man who built his house on the rock." He didn't say "the person who hears my words and thinks about 'em" or "whoever hears my words and agrees with it." But he said, "Whoever hears it and does it." "find that which gives you breath and grants you more to give "I have packed all my belongings. I don't belong here anymore. This pair of sandles, one pack to carry, this old guitar and this tattered old Bible. And I know I won't be afraid. 'cause I know, I know Home is where You are." "Open up your weepy eyes, everyone is dancing. Angels peer through sweet disguise, through a fire of cleansing. "Long hair, no hair; Everybody, everywhere:
Breathe Deep, breathe deep the Breath of God!" "You may be bruised and torn and broken, but
you're Mine!" "I don't deserve to speak, and they don't deserve
to hear it. It's makin' me believe that it's not
about me." "Kickin' against these goads sure did cut up my
feet. Didn't your hands get bloody as you washed
them clean?" "They say God blessed us with plenty. I say
you?re blessed with poverty. ?Cause you never
stop to wonder whether earth is just a little
better than the Land of the Free" "Computers will know everything in the 21st
century. They'll be like me in the 20th
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