I am still a free spirit, I am still an independent person. The Navy was not designed for such. I like the Navy, my experiences in it, for the most part. I like having job security and financial stability and knowing that if all goes as planned (that is, without some exceptional circumstances either good or bad) I'll be in the one area for the next two and a half years or so. And yet that about the time I'm getting restless again, hey, look, I'll be moved along anyway.

But I don't like redundancy and over-accountability and not necessarily knowing all the rules but how it's possible to get in trouble for doing something you didn't know you weren't supposed to or vice versa.

I'm glad that I do not have to decide soon if I'll go officer or stay in career-wise either way or get out after my current enlistment. I would not be able to decide now. I miss civilian logic. But I am glad to be in the Navy for the time being, and I still tend to lean towards career.

I just got the clutch replaced in my car, and its cable snapped today, when I was planning on driving home from my out-of-town weekend, which means that I will have to drive back tomorrow and miss the day of work. And that can be dealt with. I'm just frustrated by the whole situation .. that the guy changed my clutch without doing anything about the cable, even though I TOLD him (because a mechanic-acquantance had already told me) that the cable was most likely what had caused it to go out in the first place .. and that I didn't know all of the rules relating to leave and liberty and to travel and to unusual situations like this one. And I know that I'm not in TROUBLE as if I had done something wrong intentionally, but I also know that for various reasons this situation is out of my hands and yet others may be upset with me about it.

Whatever. *le sigh*. My car will hopefully be fixed soon and I'll get home and I'll know better in the future.